Hello my lovely Droogs and Droogets...

Apparently I havent been giving credit where credit is due (as so pointed out by RougeBat here [link] )

THANK YOU TO THE FOLLOWING ARTISTS FOR BEING SO GOOD THAT I DECIDED TO BORROW POSES OR POSSIBLY SHADING, MAYBE A FEW OTHER THINGS FROM MAYBE EVEN COPY FREE HAND, WHICH I HAVE NEVER POSTED ON ANY SITE, SIMPLY TO EMULATE AND PRACTICE BECAUSE OF THEIR ARTISTIC GREATNESS.

TheBob74
King_Cheetah
Vashperado
Fred Gallagher
Hawk & Anath
Jin Wicked
, ETC

the artists of a number of web comics i read
(VG cats, Megatokyo, Applegeeks, Mac Hall, Peter is the wolf, Shifters, anything on Snafu, etc)

The artists of many comics and manga
(transformers, battle gods, battle vixens, Hellsing, etc)

and let us not forget those who many artist have probably emulated without citing for the last ...well since before they died,
Leonardo davinci
van goh
Salvador dali
, etc.

regardless to say, i live by an important artistic creed taught to me by my high school art teacher, Mr. Michelson.

"your good when people want to buy your work, You're GREAT when someone wants to steal it."

along with this important saying that dates back ages.

"copying is the greatest form of flattery."

so in conclusion to this journal brought on by the words of someone, that if i may say, has yet to post any actual work themself (miss rougebat) i have this to say to anyone that i may have borrowed from

I only borrow or copy to learn and to show my love of another piece of artwork.

sorry if i have pissed off any of the artists that i have done this to, and for those that are, I have moved all those works to my scraps simply out of respect and to show that they are only sketches i have done out of respect and love.

hi everybody.

Well for the good news, I'm going to college on the 23rd...

at WNCC (Western Nevada Community College) for A+ hardware and software. yeah only the two classes for now, but hopefully by the summer or fall ill have financial aid and enough saved up to go to school full time.

im trying to decide on a computer or if i need one for college, cause i might be able to use my money for one. anyway, im going to hopefully be taking some art classes later on too.

well kids, i guess i decided to look at myself today, and well, going back over my past journals and writings, i have a very bad trend of depression. like today, im depressed, and i have no idea why really. probably stress that im not bringing to the front.


Ive grown up a bit since i got out of highschool, especialy in this last year and a half...

but i wonder perhaps just how much...

things i have to look forward to

I found that i really love the blues, the messages the songs have, especialy some of the old 20s and 30s stuff. ive been learning to play the blues harmonica, my dad says im doing really well with it and the band says so too.

i love to draw, but lately, ive just lost it, there is no idea, no image, nothing, not even in my writing, im in the middle of things and the ideas just wont come.

i think im going to lose it again... my mind is just slipping daily, today...today was bad, and not because things didnt work out right, or something broke or what ever, it just was bad, i want to cry and i dont know why.

i think they call it an emotional break down or mental... whatever.

tommorow im going to the dojo and working it out...somehow.

purpose maybe, perhaps that is what im trying to find, have been and still am. Ive always lived that "here are my feet, this is where i am" but lately i think my mind is elsewhere, i swear that im losing it somehow. thoughts in my mind are different then they were, i can recognize it, yet i dont know how they are different at the same time. i forget things easily, someone tells me something and i have to have them repeat it possibly one or more times till i get it down. Im worried about it.

today was quiet for the most part, the constant noise of thoughts in my head was gone for the most of it, there was no direction, nothing but my own voice.

ive been having conversations, with myself. i talk and answer, discuss abstractly and logicaly at the same time between the two thoughts.

sometimes its emotions conversing with logic and fact.

i dont know anymore, its like im not me anymore.

i just jumped because of a bubble in my soda made the surface wake.

im tense and i dont know why, im getting knots in my neck and sholders like ive never had before.

maybe im just tired, ive been short on sleep for some reason, ill go till im tired and still wake up early, which only started a week or so ago, i used to get up at ten or later, but now its like 6 30 7 8 o clock when i start waking up.

its like hitting your head against a wall in an attempt to do something.

thats the only way i can describe it.

went out and got some of my old comics out of storage (the parked back of my truck in the shed, i have a campershell on it) so yeah, gonna go through and finds me some insperation for some more pics.

i guess i just need to find my own style.

i gots me some jason alexander, some off the wall spawn stuff called blood & shadows and Blood & salvation, then i got the really kick ass spawn batman cross overs ( :3 Batman is the greatest, i mean he kicked the shit out of superman like 10 times or more, and well spawn, dude, he's all fire and brimstone evil satan powers bishies!) the first issue of steampunk


then only the best series having only the best hero ever!

Optimus Prime!

wootski!!!

so i should be set for a couple of pics atleast.